 Sunday, May 30, 2004
Title:I felt totally weak,Haiz~ Mood:Sad Song:Those were the days... Currently:Missing her badly.. Well,tommorow i will be going to camp..3 days 2 nites...asyik camp jek...boring uh..da cam NS plak yer?ahahaha...kk get to the point..Apit is going Australia tml..hope he take care of himself there..Hmm,yeah...Its true im Lost without her..seriously...ARgh..Why must this happened before i go?STress sey...Dunno ar...fark it uh..I lost everything now..Seriously..Everything...if i had a gun..im gonna kill myself..seriusly...Kill me man...I dun wanna live anymore..I hate to do this but i had too...Sorry guys after im gone...Hate me and tresure as you all did when im alive...I guess there no point living no more huh?K uh..gonna siap for the camp...bye bye.. To her: Take care of urself when im not around,Love and miss you a lot..I dun noe whats ur feeling towards me now,but I dun wanna find another girl or whatsoever again,cause u have become part of me..U left lots of memories in me and i dun wanna lose it..Love u so much... My life is draining down, Death keeps fucking me around, Ordering me to the pathways of sorrows, So that he gonna weaken my standgrounds low, I lost everything including myself, A knive is only what i had, Killing me with it seems the best way, But before that,I wanna have my say, I am lost and trapped in this world, My eyes kept crying and the vision always blur, I cant see any light as my dreams and hopes shattered, Where are you?Can you be my protective shelter? But it seems you are far away from me, I cant walk or stand on my feet no more, I cant find my way as i cant see, Lying on the floor is where i will be, Urgh,Im trapped,help me,i can feel the pain, As death pulls my soul again and again, I wanna run,i wanna hide, But it seems it get worst with every moment, Every moments get critical, And this knive has been my survival, Help me,plunge the knive into my heart, Let the blood drips and nothing stops or starts, As im gone out of your life, Im just an illusion that has survived, From the world down there to the world here, And there will be no pain going anywhere, Yeah,Im born to die, Im born with hate and lies, And I should know it from the beginning, That everymove I take is going to be the ending.... P.s.Haiz~Depressed again.. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |