 Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Title:-Sigh- Mood:Alone Song:7 years 50 days.... So many days,so much time is passing by, How could I satisfy my heart this time, Theres not much time left in this world, Let me close my eyes,and let the dreams swirl, I can't move this life on mine,I cant ask why, Maybe this world has it existence that lies, Something is wrong somethings is not right, I cannot say,I cannot guess,I cannot decide... Im lonely..are you? -sigh- Dear Diary, I written to my paper diary on 8:56 a.m.Here goes. It feels so bad to wake up feeling empty.The time is 8:56 a.m.Here I am looking at the board full of physcis.Im not in the mood to laugh.I cant,diary.I just cant.It is so hard.What have done of me?Love is blind they dont lead us to nowhere.You dont understand,Diary.If only you have feelings.Emotions will confused you.Entangled you in cobwebs.Just there,stuck and helpless.But I cant do anything anymore.I hope I will find someone better.I dont wanna kill myself.I got to go then.English period.Need to talk to Mr Bruce about my feelings.... -end- -Sigh- You know diary.I feel so lonely.I dont understand why.It woke me up.Feeling empty and cold.I hate it.But I feel it.It saddened me though.I dreamt about her all the time.When will it have to stop.Its ok if i dreamt about her.But I dreamt about the past I had with her.It makes me feel bad.-Sigh- So many days will pass.I do not know will this heart be satisfy again.I cant decide.I just cant decide.Im sorry diary to bother you with stupid craps and words.But its something I have to leave with.-Sigh- Sobz..Sobz..So sorry this has to go.But you know,we will all go in our seperate ways all over again.Sorry bout the filthy words I shot at you.I guess I will leave you alone and stop everything now..So sorry...Sobz sobz.. P.s.Im Lonely.. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |