 Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Title:The Suicide letter.. Mood:Depressed Song:Roots and Boots-Up yours! Currently:Crying I cant help myself but to say sorry to this people...Why? Why mom?Why must u be in pain just to give birth to me?Im sorry,but I dun want to waste my time here..I hate to this mom...Nine month of burden carrying me..im So sorry mom..Why dad?Why must u spent all ur money on me?On skool,on holidays,and even if i get into trouble..When i am secretly going to die at a young age?Why brother?Your love you gave to me,I appreciate it,all those times im hurt,I go to you,but when you make one mistake,I make a fuss all over it..Im sorry bro..Seriously..May u not find this letter on my blog,I hope so..I dont you to know bout my background life...Why little brother?You may irritate me all the times..I may hurt you,scold you..But when ur not here,my life is all in silence...this house looks as if it does not exist...Why friends?Where all those those times we spent together?STeal people things..Backstabbed each other..in the end,we smile to each other..Why Nana?Why must you met me?I hate it when i see you in pain,I hate it when because of me,you had to hate yourself?Im so sorry..But people say,life must move on..but my life is nowhere now..hope u are happy when im not with you now..Why People?Why is there connection...in the end..i had to die...I had to...so sorry guys... This song is for me.. Whatever happens?To the so-called true skinhead? You decided to fell in love and now your in pain? Whatever happens?To your pride and dignity? You are now damn weak and fell to your knees?! Whatever happens?To your so called fuck fear,drink beer? Look what happens,you are now crying,dripping endless tears! Whatever happens?To your loud protest and the strength of a hooligan?? You put it aside and go on with your love life and never touch it for years! Whatever happens?To your trust towards your mates and friends? You ignore them for a while and you came back to them in the end! Whatever happens?To what you say when you say "Let us unite?!" You take it for granted and the worst thing is you LIE! Whatever happens?To your roots and your skinheads ways? You throw them!And you put everything away!! Whatever happens?To you after you end your love life?! You became depressed and now you wanted to die!!! Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality! Where have you gone when your mates ask you to stay!? Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality! That no one cant be trusted and this world is so full of shit! Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality! Let's get up one more time and show them what you really mean! Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality!Wake up to reality! What are you waiting for?Tie your boots and lets get going!!!! Oi!oi!oi!Who are the smartest skinhead!? Oi!oi!oi!Give me back my skinhead life!? Oi!oi!oi!I cant trust anyone no more! Oi!oi!oi!I learnt a new lesson and thats the end of it! Oi!oi!oi!Who are the smartest skinhead?! Lets get going,shave your hair and do what you need to do! You have a lot of work and too much things to cover too!! Going to the gigs,get into fight,drink and party! Cause you knew,now there will be no one you are going to carry!!!! I guess this is the rite time to sing this song, Mengapa hatimu berubah Setelah diriku mula menyinta Di mana janji lafaz setia Yang pernah kau ucapkan dulu Kekasih... Semerah api di hatiku Sepanas kasihku terus membara Kau siram cinta yang menyala Hingga kini tiada jejaknya Oh... bisanya Kan ku cari cahaya Menyinari cinta kita Kau padamkan semua Sesat dalam kegelapan Bertahum menanggung rindu Seabad kasih berpadu Setiaku tak dihatimu Di mana janjimu yang dulu Katamu aku kau rindu Sehari tidak bertemu Sedetik cuma berlalu Hinggaku menjadi keliru Diam membisu I guess it time for me to plan on how i should die...Who wanna follow me go City Hall tomorrow?I wanna drown my sorrows,then i will sit at the padang and look at the stars and count them for the nite..... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |