 Thursday, June 03, 2004
Title:Walking aimlessly... Mood:Severe depression Song:Nothing Went back from Ncc just now..Haiz~ Seriously,I dunno what to do..I cant decide which way im going to go..im totally lost in this world..Where i am alone..I am born to be alone..Why am I crying?Please dont cry..Be strong..is what I always say..sobz sobz..I cant help myself..This is me..ALone everytime..Im stuck..Why?Why God?Why things must change and i have to suffer?Why?Is this one of your obstacles?God,if you only gave me a gun,and I will shoot myself..So that the pain will ease...And I will hurt no one..I guess this my life..No one can help me again..I topple and fell....My life broke into little pieces..I find myself crying at times..Crawling into the darkness,picking up the pieces and putting back them together,only to find it broken again...Why God?DO you want me to damage myself again and again?I will do that but please give me a second chance to be with her,God..I plead you..Sobz.Sobz...If you wont,you will find me damaging myself for you..to show how strong my love is for her.....Sobz..ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I topple and fell into the calm water of sadness, The cold water rushed through my face,engulfing myself into coldness, I tried to swim,but the more i tried,i found myself drowning, I look around and you are not there,i panic and started crying, Is it our destiny has to be like this?One of us must die, Cause I could not find anything to hate you,your love has tied, Me,along with you,everytime you are near to me,i can feel your heart, And I knew and put my hopes for you,for us to be together right from the start....... P.s.I cant help it but to say,"Please come back to me..I need you..." |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |