 Saturday, June 05, 2004
Title:Where are you? Mood:Kinda dissapointed Song:Proud Prisoner K mates!Going down to City Hall today.Hm,what should I do today?Oh yeah,gonna pierce my left ear..Dunno whether it is painful or not..but just pierce uh...ahahha..Going out with Hadi maybe,or even Azam and the boys...Chat with a skinhead from Portugal...haha..Nice talking to him though...Eh yah~!I got an outing with SANI!!!!better call him up.. REad her blog..Guess,you have a liking to someone else huh?Well,nevermind,guess I have to accept the fact that you wont be coming back to me anymore..Haiz~Guess,you will put me behind your life and forget bout me...Im nothing,Im stupid,A loner,A dumb ass thats why...Dunno why must we break up...When everything went so fine..Really,everything was ok when this happen?Why must love be unfair at times..argh~dont wanna think bout it anymore uh..Now,I have to go back to my screw-up childhood..I thought when I met you,you will be the one who lighten my life,you did,but you are nowhere now..and I guess,I fell in to the darkness once more...Haiz,haiz,haiz,Pendek,Pendek,Aperlar nasib kau sekarang..Aper nak jadi,terserah kepada Tuhan uh...Another day,another pain,Another love,and I must die...Im just a loser,Im just a screw up skinhead,Im just another boy who is suffering from emotional pain,Why?Why? Im wasting myself now..Slowly,sucking my life again,It aint no joke,It aint no song..Im wasting myself..Sucking out the life in me.. Where are you when I need you now? How long must I wait for you,somehow? Why things must turn out this way? Why must you be going far away? Wheres the princess,I used to love? You are the only key to my freedom, Without you,everything around me went black, Oh God,what must I do to take you back, I wanna waste myself,I wanna die, Oh!How I wish I dont have a life, How can I make you understand? Without you,my life wont stand, Wheres the promises you gave me yesterday? Did you forget them and throw them all away? I feel hurt and in deep pain,my heart tearing apart, Oh,Nana,Please come back to me...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hate!, Kills!, Love!, Die!, You have gone,but the pain remains~ It time,to pack my life and leave,I cant take this anymore,The pain is just too real,Time wont be enough to heal my pain..I find no reason to live anymore..Love hurts,they do..It collapse my life,my everything...And now,I dont find a reason why must i glued back my pieces of life anymore..Someone hear my story,hear my voice in the wind,I look happy and cheerful,but deep down,im suffering an endless pain,My kidney is now in pain when i walk..I guess,there something wrong with it,With luck,im gonna die sooner or later...I hope I do..cause i dun wanna face the world..The reality that have been giving me..The pain that wont leave me alone....God save me...I dun want to be like another kids,who die because of love,I wanna die cause I been wasted by people..Theres no point living in this world God,Where war and distruction occurs..I dun want to see the pain people gets,cause I too can feel the pain,But how can I ever stop the pain if people keeps giving me it?This life has to end soon,God..I choose the wrong path and now I suffer..Its my fault God,I hope too much in love and then when mishaps happened,my life suffered severely...God,Why am I like this all the time?Why people keep hurting me?Do they love it?God,Im sorry that I hurt myself all this time..The body you gave,I have damage it by drinking and piercing..I wanna die easier way God,there nothing much I can do here..Even though,Im a sin,but I still pray for myself..But,my memory keeps running back when Im with her..God,Im going out today,Set someone to kill me,God,Im failing myself,God,This is life how its suppose to be,Pain has been a pleasure to me now..Keeps hurting and hurting..It hurts now too..God..Help me..Theres no one now that can help me beside you...Haiz~Why people met and leaves?Why people leaves and the pain remains?Why God?Sobz~Haiz....The life has to go,but the body remains,Im just a your illusion with no objections....Im not your human,Im not your enemy,Im someone who willing to do anything if you just kill me.. P.S.Apit going home today...Miss him..Listen to my story when u return bro...Hope u read my msg ..Take care bro... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |