 Friday, July 16, 2004
Title:All alone Mood:Sad Song:Look What You Done Waktu kau berduka, Aku kau perlukan, Waktu kau menganis, Aku kesaktian, Ku lamar hatimu, Tika ku kan pergi, katamu kau menanti, Akhirnya kau berpaling, Bersama orang lain, Sakitnya hatiku, Sampainya hatimu...... Kerasnya jantungku terdengar namamu..... Dear Diary, Talk to her 2 days ago and things is not too well here in school at home or in my life.I feel so deserted.How should I continue my life if things dont go too well.Yes,I have my friends my mates and my parents.But theres something missing in my heart.Yet I dont know what it is.If only things would not be in this way.If only..If only.. Im at Haryani house right now.Playing her computer.Fix her computer,Bah~in the end i fix myself up.Apa nak cakap kan,kalau orang dier lembab,computer dier pun sama..Wahahhaa..Just joking.Dont mistake me for coming on her house,cause we intend to study but in the end i study the computer. Yani is just a good friend of mine.Shes a bit noisy and laughs loudly but in the end i accept her the way she are.Maybe we do have past history in our life back then.But well, erm maybe i put it all behind.Dunno lar she remembers it or not.Cause shes so forgetful.Wahaha.. I feel so alone right now.I feel so empty.I feel so cold.I need a blanket.I need a shelter.Why must I end up like this?Left out in the world with no one else to turn to now.I expose myself too much in the world.People tend to leave me in my own ways.I dont want to feel this way like I did 2 years ago.6 months may bring joy but it dont last.I cant find another you.And i dont think there were every time when you want to come back to me.Its gone..everything gone.I feel so alone and sad whenever Im alone.I cant decide I cant think. At school,people may see me laugh,but behind it hides a thousand sorrows which I never want my friends to know about it.I dont wanna be a burden to them anymore. My parents,kept quarrelling at home.I feel so sick hearing it.So tense up.I cant concentrate on studies and i did if i get to get out of the house.I dont feel any love anymore.You cant help me,No one could.Im just alone all these times....... The night still shivers me, The darkness disable me to see, What left out in the world of darkness, Where things always end in sadness.... P.s.Im alone..... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |