 Thursday, July 01, 2004
Title:High above the moon Mood:Lonely Song:Moon Currently:Crying Dear Diary, Im crying though i dont know why.The song is too emotic i guess..Sobz Sobz..Haiz.. What is it like to lose someone diary?It feel hurt,pain and pressure.I dont feel it.But I just feel lonely..I asked all my friend to neglect me once more.I just want people to leave me alone.I dont want to be a burden anymore oh dear diary.I dont anyone help.Let me be alone.Let me feel the pressure..Sobz sobz... After all i gave her pain and blame her.I guess its time to blame myself.To carry her burden again.I will take away your pain Nana.Dont worry.Im doing it now.Sobz sobz..Let me be like this forever..Im happy you regained yourself..Im happy..Sobz sobz.. My little brother saw me cry and he asked me why.I tell him not to worry.If only he know that this is the last time i will be here.*Tears dwelling in my eyes*Sobz sobz.. Im just a burden to everyone i guess.To my parents..brothers..friends..everyone...Sobz.. I guess I will go away and leave you all alone..Sobz..ISk..I cant take this anymore.. I will take sleeping pills,I will slit my wrist...I will..I hope you all wont miss me much when im gone ok?Just dont..It hurts me if you do.. Sorry everyone..I will fly with tears.. *Closing my eyes forever*Im sorry..It hurts to be like this..I guess this is the solution.. P.s.Im happy everyone is not like me.Im happy that Im the one who become like this.Im just happy.I saved everyone life.Thank you God.Maybe my destiny ends here.Can you please take my life?Im want it to end it here.....I have done enough.. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |