 Thursday, July 08, 2004
Title:Love and Hate Mood:Deppressed Song:Blink 182 - Adam's Song Another Unkwown(By:Me) I think Im always unknown, Should have guess it all along, Met a girl,left me behind, Should have guess it time to time, Guess this feeling is taking place, Too bad I'm out of the game, Where should I be in this world, Where my emotions always swirl, Chorus I cant get into anyone existence, They act as if I just dont existed, Left alone,Left behind,time to time, I cant do nothing but make my song rhyme, This like is making me too sick, Im someone who people like to pick, Please tell me now,I want to know, Where do I belong,Why Im here, Its killing me softly now, I guess I am unknown, Kill me..Kill me..Kill me.. I dont want to dream,I dont want to dream, Your face keeps hauting me in my sleep, I woke up feeling empty and cold, You know I still love you, Dont deny,Opened your heart, Lets go back right from the start, Im missing you,give me a break, You know Im not your friend, Im deppressed.. Im deppressed.. Dear Diary, Im a bit happy today.I got an "A" for my argumentative essay.It was a last minute work but I did it properly though.So happy.Finally got an "A" in my work. I woke up today,feeling so empty.I do miss her.I really do.I called her few nights before.But theres no answer.Im scared that war might be triggered.Im a bit shy to call her though.About what happened.I hide myself from her nowadays.Hiding and hiding.Im just scared.I hide my feelings and everything.Im so scared to talk.Scared that past memories may happened again.Im scared.Im worried.I still miss you.I do..-Sigh- Time is indeed running out.Im wasting myself.Im getting weaker and weaker.I swear Im getting weaker and weaker.Im not lying.I feel so sickly nowadays.I smoke,I drink.My cheeks is not as that chubby like last time.What is happening to me?I felt lonely.Too lonely.Even at school,with my friends,laughing around.I felt totally lonely.I felt too empty.I cant do anything about it.I cant.No matter how much I tried.The more I tried,The more I lose.What more can I do? The thought of suicide is always clearly stated in my mind.But I dont want to.What would my friends say?Their thoughts and everything.And city hall wont be that noisy anymore..Im wasting myself.Haiz..Nobody said it was easy,No one ever said it will be this hard..I will take it back to the start... Where do I stand now?It seems that this feeling is taking place forever.I dont want to cry.I held back my tears.I feel so lost and miserable.Nothing change.They dont.It always the same memories flashed back.I hate to be this way.I hate it.I felt so lost in this darknes now.Haiz.. Diary,Could you help me?Listen to me.If only you are alive to be there to listen 24 hours everyday.I cant seem to find nobody to go to.Everytime I suffer it alone.Its so hard to be in this state.I cant be happy.I wont smile.I wont share anyone joy.Let everyone be happy without me.I will start to move away from friends,love ones.I dont want to be another burden.Let me move away and let me see you all be happy from afar.Im just a stranger.A stranger....Im just unknown...-Haiz- Dengarlah kalau kau ingin kembali, Lupakanlah kalau kau ingi pergi, Kerana hati ku disakiti.... Haiz..Deppression..I felt the sorrow,I felt the unhappiness,I felt the darkness.Is it true Im going to die in this state?I feel so useless.. P.s.Haiz~Im just another no one who always take the pain and the blame.No one is there for me.. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |