 Wednesday, May 18, 2005
My confusing life gets more and more confusing. Yes,Hernie,thanks for wanting to talk to me. Back to my confusing life.Is it Im confused or is it people behaviour that confuses me so much.No,no.Please, dont force or exerted interest in me because I just have no time for it.Or Im not that interested.I just like this nowadays.Not having the energy I used to have over the past few years.Yes,it totally change.I dont have my lively energy anymore. I maybe entertaining at times but I feel tired after that.Too tired and dont blame me for being a bit stuck up at school.Im tired with life and work. I have something to voice out in myself.I can feel it but I just dont know how to explain.Telling somebody about it wont make any different.I need to search what Im looking for.Something that doesnt even exist I guess. I guess I know what I been searching for all this while.That is,myself.Im searching for myself.I lost myself.How sad. Ok enough talk about my life.I'm able to handle it if I just tried harder.This life you must learn to relax ya know what I mean?You must take things cool and easy and be patient.Dont make a rush decision as it may leads you to nowhere or worst.Yeah,I really learnt a lot of things when Im alone.Im able to think smoothly. I wonder how many people ever bitch me behind my back.Oh,why must I bother.Sometimes in school I can be bothered with such things.Girls,Relationships unless that girl is somewhat to me worth it.I dont understand people get hurt by such things.Yes,I was hurt too but it was a mistake.A mistake I can avoid. Sometimes I daydreamt in class.Thinking about my life with a girlfriend.Thinking how could I handle it.Hmm,it may not worth it to be in relationship at the age of 16.Im prepared to eat my own words though,who knows I might get a hook with someone else this time. So,relax,stay cool,stay low and you may find yourself where you desire. Like magic,it works.Heh~ wwoooo!!Its 410 am!Im still not sleepy yet!Should I wait a bit longer and said Good Morning to her?ahhaa.... P.s.Are you ready for my love?And what do you meant by love? |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |