 Sunday, July 10, 2005
Day after day,I looked for something at your blog till i felt stupid. Work was like crazy today.I worked full shift cause I replace someone.Sometimes,I do question myself why do I work in the first place.The truth is... I hate home.I hate to see myself stuck here with my loving family.And sometimes,it do hurts me that when my family is all having their dinner while Im out there,working and get fuck.Smoke and died.I feel that 10 years later,I will lose contact with my family.Living in these stone cold world.I always get the reality check.I have a low self esteem which I hide deep in my heart. I cant seems to find reasons of my own.I always feel these depression in my heart.When people complains to me about their love ones or friends.I always had to say,treasure them and dont regret.Why is me that always appeared at the wrong time.Me appearing where God have set the place for people to seperate? I realised that I was never like this last time.I tried to change.Even with advices,Im still like this.I have a stubborn heart.I think too much.I do the right things and the wrong things at the same time. Hugs and kisses doesnt meant alot to me now.Messaging or talking to the phone or whatever you do that seems to show that you care. Wow,this entry is quite depressing and it always been. Play me a song that will never never ends......... P.s.The problem is,I always speak silent words where people wont seems to understand. Bye Bye. Laughter And Joy, aPen |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |