 Saturday, August 20, 2005
As I stood far far away.Being a nobody to you.As I see your changes you wont noticed or you try not to noticed.As we gone to our separate ways.As we spoke of silent words.As we try to understand but we dont get it.And seeing myself feeling hurt and suffer alone.And as you move on..And I still stay. Severe Depression is what suits me. I end it all.I end things all.And its my decision not anyone.And soon I can see myself suffer and having a twinge of guilt and pain. I cant see myself being friends to you.I just cant.After all that confession,I just cant see myself being friends with you.And I hide this blog away.So that I cant be seen suffering.With no one to turn to.And I hide my egos and anger away as darkness and pain engulfs.Maybe things wont be ok anymore.You just cant say it.We cant just predict it. The part where things hurt me the most is where you dont understand or catch my words.You just dont.And Im left here alone.Without feeling the satisfaction of not telling you the right words I wanted to say. Maybe,its just that you are being happy and jolly is where you wont noticed you weakness but when the pain comes,you will let out everything.Maybe this is your time.And I been through all that. I guess you never remember how I help you along the way.And now,I being alone so that I wont seek help from others.Im feeling sick and tired at the same time.I feel like ending my life and bring all the pain with me but I guess its not worth it as I have many things to do.Who knows?Nobody knows. I cant focused on my studies too.Thinking too much about this.And I really should start.Just to remove my feelings.Im trying to be strong.Seriously.I know sometimes people help but sometimes I just dont heed it. Yup.Im ending this emo entry soon.And we shall all move on in life and I wont feel depressed.....When things are okay?Hm...I dont know...I guess when things are not okay then you will meet me again..I promised. Nyahahahhahaa..Eh why the hell am I laughing?Because I am made up of joy and laughter!!! Can you help me find a way to carry on again?? Kk...I need to sleep..So take care peepz and have a nice weekend ahead of you. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |