Ting ting ting!Early in the morning as me and Wan's bike speed down the road.Hit a primary school kid because she moved to the wrong side of the lane.Screech....The mom kid said sorry to me.

So we speed down the road when suddenly,Bang!...a lorry hit me and thrown me far away.Blood flowed down from my head to my school shirt.I heard my breath breathing in and out hard.And darkness engulf and I died.Actually it did not happened.I wish it was.But sooner or later I will regret.

So I parked the bike infront of the school.Met Faezah at the traffic light.We walked together to school as her brother parted.

"Asal muka gangster?"
"Mana ada?Semalam tak tido uh..."

Then assembly was cancelled and we went straight to class.Wan asked me for his story book which I completely forgotten and I said I forget.But it was with Nizam.I keep getting forgetting things now.So,my eyes were red and I stared at Wan just like he said in the morning.I cant remember.All I knew is I didnt sleep last night and even today.2 days I havent slept.Scared of getting nightmares.

Kept quiet in class and I did chuckled at Arif and Ismail jokes.Happy birthday Arif.Mine is next month.I did laugh to stop bothering me.Sooner or later it came again. I slept at Geography lesson for 1 period with Din head resting on my arm.I feel into a deep sleep and I woke up direct at 10:55.

Recess came.I didnt sit with Syarif and the gang now.Instead,I went to the back.Intend to smoke at my secret place but I didnt have a fag.Soon I will be seeing myself alone.Accompanied with my rations that consists of Cowhead's biscuit,fags,and 2 milos.And ants or other creepy crawlies that scatter around.I talked to Wan and we did have a laugh.

When a man is out of sight, it is not too long before he is out of mind.

I bit Nizam hand till he had to bend his knees and touch the ground.I released my venom into his arm.Its been a long time I bite.Now,I didnt have her so I bit people randomly.Speaking of venom,Im Carnage.So we have 3 Spideys Character.It wont be long till we see Spiderman being pin down as we opened his web catridges and throw him from a high rise building.

I found his background
http://www.spiderfan.org/characters/carnage.html

And we bought fags and the usual shop and smoked near 638.Fags have become my good friend.It always there with a price to pay.I dont mind.As long it sticks to me whenever I need it.

I think thats for today...
Like wan say,pick a song and composed it.

I cant stand the pain,
It hurts me again and again,
Im just out to find,
The better part of me,

I know im not perfect,I know I make you wait,
But sometimes we have to blame the time,Im sorry bout what I said,
And its not easy to be me,

Wish I could turned the time,
See you the same again,
But this time you're on my side,
And stop all this pain,

It may be unbelievable..but try to believe,
As we all have a short time to live,
I may be hidden and you shall not see,
Let me spent my time alone to bleed,
Its not easy to be me,

Far,far away...away from me,
Well its alright,as long I can see you smile,
Im not crazy..or anything,

I cant stand the pain,
It hurting me again,
Let me see my life,
Wasting before my eyes,

Im only a man waiting at the end of the street,
Searching for you as if you're special in my dreams,
Only a man enduring the pain,
Looking for you inside in me,
Inside in me,Its hard for me to see,

Im only a man waiting at the end of the street,
Im only a man searching for you in my dreams,
Im only a man waiting at the end of the street,

Its not easy,
To be me......


p.s.Im scared to lose you forever but I painfully forced myself to get the thinking that theres someone better for you.

5:14 PM