 Thursday, September 08, 2005
3.am. Emoapen..... Im being emo after feeling angry about seeing somebody name on a friend blog.Is it Im being too jealous?Or is it that I feel the disapoinment..Or is it both? Do you like seeing me like this? Do you enjoy?Or do you think its fun?I hope you do.Because you are not making things better.... Because Fun Without Me Is Actually Fun Afterall..... I hope you enjoy seeing me engulfing myself in silence.I hope you enjoy seeing me fall down again and again as I try to reach you.... And if there should be a friend who once betrays you are making things worst.Please dont....Cause Im hurting over here....... I just lost....I just lost.... Can my birthday in 1 week time celebrates all by my own? Why are you making things worst when Im doing things right? Is it me...or is you? Are you carried away by exaggrating things and forgetting all the bright side or are you doing revenge? If I should say that I cant accept you last time then Im sorry....Im not being 'playing hard to get' but I never realised.And now when it is my turn,you just say friends....But whats the use of 3 years wasting.........when Im here already...its ok its ok... When one grows,they will tend to know more people..... And can I just say my goodbye here now? Or do you want me to leave? Because I just dont feel right staying around... Or should my early funeral be a day to remember? Goodbyes...goodbyes...Sobs.... I should have study yet im here emoing.... p.s.Wake me up when September ends......... ------------------------------------------------------------------ I woke up early despite sleeping around 5 plus after drinking alot of cough syrup.Whats next?Pills I suppose... I dont know why I had to cry early in the morning but then I have found my reasons. I know its hard to move on somebody you love eventhough you knew that person never treasure or cherish you in times when not needed.But do she know what I feels deep inside?What I did behind her and all these times infos keep flowing in. Dont you think its getting abit too hard but yet I still continue.Realising the truths that hurt you deep emotionally but yet you dont want to give up.Dont you think Im doing too hard for an average guy?Im not playing hero here.... When you know things are all one sided and yet you still play it like a fool.And who knows that Im now even nothing to her. Why are you doing this?My n levels is near..already too near and Im in the state of depression....I hate this.I hate this... And I shall remember what is it like to help and hurt in return.And I shall remember the rants.And I shall remember the compliments.And I shall remember the tears I shed today and yesteday and tommorow.And I shall remember how sad I am when you are there happy.And I shall remember how avoidments can even lead to depression.And I shall remember what I did was right and I shall remember how you make it wrong.And I shall remember the memories we have last time.And I shall remember it left me nothing but an empty soul... And I shall.... And I shall remember how hard is it for me to move on..... Sobs... p.s.Im having a heartache.... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |