 Friday, September 09, 2005
Continuing from yesterday. My stomach seems to be much better than now after sleeping. I went home from work as usual.After hanging around at the RC near Thambi block and I met an old buddy who an ex-trombonist from Cesspit or Seventy-3.He said he once played in Sally Rejex as a trombonist.I forgot his name.But he hugged me and guess what,he kissed me!Bluek!Perhaps he is the second person who kissed me!The first one was a guy called Zakir and he worked at Pizza Hut.Just because I gave Zakir a fag and he kissed me!Bluek BLuek!!I never kissed a guy before and I never will and now guys are kissing me.Honestly mom,do I have the gay look or hormones?I dont think so?Right?Right?Right? So I walked home after talking about the end of the world with Thambi.It creeps me.This time I dont feel emo or happy.I just feel nothing as I smoke while holding the letter.I dont know why.Maybe the incident affect my life too great till I am so completely speechless now. I will hope for a better tommorow eventhough I will sometimes dwell in the past because without the past theres no tommorow. I met Affa yesterday to sort things out because we are getting old on this.And I spent 40 minutes of silence,well not completely silent,because I spoke a bit and so does she.After reading the letter in front of her,I dont know what to say.My mind is all blank and she kept asking whether this is over and things could turn normal again.It would and it would but I have to take things slowly again.Step by step because I have fall too deep.But with the help of optimistic minds I shall slowly return to normal again. Like always after receiving a letter,I will read it again while smoking under my block.Take my time though before going home. At home,I smoked inside the toilet even though I knew my father never worked tonight but I dont care I just smoked anyways.Its when Im about to finish it when suddenly, UWEK! Lots of my saliva and black foreign objects went out of my mouth!I dont know what I ate but then I washed it away with the hose.My stomach becomes quesy after that.I was sweating and my mind cant think.So I just lie down on my bed and rub "Minyak Kapak" on my stomach as time pass by. Tick Tock Tick Tock...... After what it seems to be ok,I went to my computer to find new skins and couldnt find one..Hrmm... Till here then...... Hugs? p.s.When things tend to be bad and miserable in your life,I will come in..I promise... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |