Lets think of it.

One problem has yet to be introduced in my life.You want me to share the story here?Of course I would.This is my diary.My life and I dont even care whether people looked at it or critize it.

Here goes.

I worked from 5 to 9 at Long John Silver and had a meeting at Pizza Hut which ends around 12:30 yesterday.So everythings normal.

But when I got home,the door latch was locked and I knew something bad is going to happen.And it did.

After I went in and my father hit me in the head.I was completely angry because I am so damn tired but I kept quiet.Then he asked me,

"Kau tak tau nak telefon rumah pe yang kau balik lambat?"
"Apa yang adik tak telefon?Handphone hilang abih adik da bilang ayah pe?""

Then he found out about my supplies.

"Mana kau dapat ni?Aku nak tangkap kau,kau tahu tak?Siapa yang jual kau ni semua?"
"Eh,kalau ayah nak tangkap orang yang nak jual tu,ayah tangkap adik sekali ok?"
"Anak sial.Aku tak nak jumpa muka kau lagik.Kau kalau tak nak sekolah kau bilang aku biar ayah keluarkan kau senang.Buang ni rokok!!!"

I feel so........

"Eh aku pe pasal lar aku nak sekolah ke taknak.Kau kalau tak nak bayar duit sekolah aku,aku boleh kerja lar carik duit aku sendiri."

Then things get heat up.

He said something offensive so,

"Eh kalau kau tak nak aku tinggal kat rumah sini,aku boleh jalan lar.Tak pun kau letak aku kat boys home,Kepala buto."

He came into my room and bashed me up.I kicked him and I knew if I should punch him the chest,he will end up in hospital or just die.And I will end up with a death sentence.He nearly swinged me with something I cant remember but I knew mom threatened to call the police.

By the time,my eyes were filled with tears and I was packing my bag with clothes.

Mom comforted me but I dont want to hear anymore reasons.

"Eh mak,kalau mak baru balik abih mak beri salam abih da lar tak de orang jawab abih kene pukul kat kepala pulak tu.Mak suka tak?Mana adat ayah?"

Mom was speechless.

I took my keys and went out but father stopped me and closed the door without forgetting to punch my face.

"Apa kau takut pe sak aku nak lari rumah?"

Then mom tried to keep things down.

And I spent crying in my room for an hour.

Why did everyone blamed me for everything?After a problem ends,another problem came in.This is too fast.

Why did people hurt me in the first place?Why?Why?

Argh...

Too many people to ache over.

How the hell am I going to study my N levels liked this.And if you wont be seeing me in school anymore then I'm sorry.Its not my decision but my fucking father.

Or should I say,I wont even treat him my father anymore.

Aku
Kau
Aku
Kau.....

Now,I have a family shattered.
Its a good thing that I still put a smile on my face in school even though I knew I hid a thousand lies and its a miracle I still survive this ordeal.
And who else wanted to hurt or fake me or even blind me?
-sigh-
Now I feel so far away from happiness....

3 days to my birthday...3 days to my birthday...What could happened on that day?

p.s.Dont hit me or scold me because you said you want me to be perfect.And Im trying and Im trying..

4:07 PM