 Monday, October 03, 2005
The suicide letter(By aPen) Dear lovely parents,hoped this letter reach the doorstep, Pardon me for the sudden disappearance at home, I have gone so far away on my own to have a peace of mind, Loneliness follows me around but Im used to it,(So much I became cold) Forgive my sins I did in my life but Im not perfect, We all arent made to be but did you see me try? It saddens me to see other families out there having reunion dinner, Jealousy engulfs me through the night but I move on,(With a crestfallen heart) To make a change is already hard enough for me, When things I always kept to myself,sacrificing my pain to a smile, I dont asked much in life but Im scared to make things through alone, So I move on and never come back to end the pain,forever, Chorus, (1) I had nothing left but the suicide letter in my hand, I walked alone afraid that suicide gripped me one day,(It did now) As I drifted far away from happiness and pain, Tears meant nothing now as it dropped to the ground,(No one catches my tears) (2) Please,no one is to be blame and dont cry,(Thank God I lived) It saddens me more when I leave the world alone,(Let me rest in peace) There's much more in life and death but Im a empty soul,(Without feelings) Theres no one to hold on,Theres no one to hold on,(Devils calling my name) Tell my friends I treasured each one of them, I tried to avoid enemies but I got egos,forgive me,(I'm not perfect) As I go,remembering each individuals, The sounds of laughters can still be heard in my ears,(The good times we had) All said and done,as my body drenched with blood, I'm too young to die,I'm too young to die,(Regrets came into my mind) But I can't live and see myself this way,constant rejects and insults, I'm too scared to live yet too scared to die,(But the night came and take my life away) It's too soon but what is done cannot be undone, No one can set me free but myself,(Suicide is the last resort) As I lay waiting to close my eyes for eternity, Ambulance sirens and I heard people shouting my name.(For the last time) And the suicide letter is all I am left.....(You can't see me being sad anymore) p.s.I gone a bit soft tonight. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |