Us(aPen)

Asking me,for second chances to be how it suppose to be,
I told you,I never wanted to wage a war but you insist,
And here you are,out of love,blaming on me,
Im willing to take you back but I can't promise to assist,

Asking me,whether it felt lonely without you here,
I cant say much because its dark and empty all the time,
Answers you knew but you kept hidden somewhere,
I have already change and Im losing my mind,(Over you,Over you)

Chorus
1
Understand,that we are breaking the promises,
We cant win in either ways and it hard to stay together,
I have to look down and gave way last time,
To get betrayed and to see how much you change,

2
Have you ever wonder how I feel,
And how hard for me to speak without us getting hurt,
To let you read my mind without much hesitations,
To satisfy my thoughts when you're away,

I put my faith over somewhere else,
My ciggarretes are the closest friend I could find,
Because I knew,you are there,unreacheable,
How many time you need before I can hold you,

Take it from here,Im becoming blind,
But still,anything for you,I will managed a smile,
Someday you will remember me when I died,
And the tears you didnt managed to catch when I cried........




Hey there.I didnt managed to go to school today because Im sick since yesterday.Sorethroat,cough and flu.

Yet I had to join the rat race and go to work today.

Im helping my friends to find a work for them.Arif,Danial and maybe Syazana will be coming down to Pizza Hut on Friday.Due to my sweet talk to Kak Yana,I managed to convince her for vacancies.Anyways,she claimed that the people she called for interview didnt come so theres a lot of vacancies and PH requires a lot of crew to run the shop.

Working at 2 places made me worry sometimes.My time schedule is so damn tight!One for the band,the other for the money.Anyways,I planned to make my first thousand during my early teens.Then I will be filthy rich during my teenage years.But of course,hard work will have to come by.

I guess I wont fast today.Half day only because I need to take my medicine before going to work later on.LJS Bugis.

My 1st brother was admitted to hospital for an operation today.Received the news yesterday morning.Her wife sms my mother though.

My 1st brother.I didnt even know I had another brother for 15 years of living.It was then my 1st brother found out the divorce letter when moving out.His mother,the one who gave birth to him and told him that my father is dead is a blardy fucktard.Dont know why.But she is.

My life is so jumbled up eh?Thats why I never claimed to be the average.What a miracle I still survived the ordeal!

I cant wait to meet aPit on Saturday with the rest of the band mates.aPit want to go where?Town?City Hall?Geylang?Arab Street?

Smoke Shisha?Play CS?Go to the rooftop of Esplanade?Coffee Bean?StarBucks?

Where?Where?Where?Im so hyperactive even though Im sick.And its on Saturday.So I work on Friday but not Saturday.

Haiya.Till here then.

I know the song sucks.But I have memories in it.

p.s.Carpe Diem~*

12:29 PM