I just reached home.Went to Cake's House(Shublei) yesterday.But I went out with Mark and Cake before that.

Met them at Boots And Shoes.Mark bought fags as he is 20 years old already.Then we proceed to Level 5 carpark and smoked our lungs out.

We went to search for Cake Zippo lighter.Just browsing through though.I already had one zippo lighter eventhough I already had one but still,its nicer.

After that,we sneaked into the Cavana Backdoor and steal some foods.Kak Z packed for us the chicken rice.Nice and tasty suits it.Mon was there too.Listening to Thoughts Before Me by Amber Pacific.I dont know why he is so emo.

Then we waited for Mark's mother to transfer cash and we played CS.Bang Bang Shoot Shoot.The typical stuff.Awp I was top frag.

We finished at 11 plus and went to Cavana and sit around their rectangle.Then,the PH crew arrived.I asked whether I was terminated or not.They just say my name was under suspension.Good.I rather have myself terminated from that stupid place.

I asked Kak Z to take care of Suria because I heard she was bullied down there.As Kak Z is the senior there,I asked her for help.Heh.How nice of me to do things behind people's back.

We took the last bus and head for Cake's house.Just the 3 of us.Mark,me and Cake.All single and are bored of our minds.I decided to play Resident Evil 4 again,this time with special costumes.Ashley was beautiful but Ada Wong was a bomb.

After playing it for liked 3 hours,we took turns.Mark and Cake played soccer.We cooked something beforehand though.Mee Maggi and Roti Telur.Soccer was funny.The faces and Mr Vegas we called him.Everytime when we recieved a Yellow Card or Red Card,his face from the opponent team came out.Funny sia.Then we played Soul Calibur 3.I wasnt good but gets better after winning.Ehehe.

Took 913 and went home with Mark.He wanted to drop off at Admiralty so I suggest he take 913 with me.It was then,he told me about his life.

His parents divorced and he just broke up with his girlfriend.And Mon lived his life for 18 years without having any girlfriends.I really pity him.

Really.Imagined living his life all lonely.Without having any special someone to treat him right.To hug him or to comfort.Mark told me to that the girl he close with is blowing him hot and cold.Seriously.Why do people take advantage all the time.Why cant they have the things thats already there infront of them.But no,they take the hard way for them.Now I know why he is emo.So lonely and dark.Maybe its already too late for him.He being emo,keeping things to himself.Making himself sick.Making his heart sick.

Mark too just broke off with his girlfriend.The way he broke off is so heartbroken.Her girlfriend called him up to meet him.Then the gf told him everything about her crush at work.After that,her gf decided to break up because the feelings werent there anymore.She ran and Mark chase her.Her gf flagged a taxi and went into it.Mark wanted to go in but she push him.Then she head off.

Man.Mark told me.Sometimes you just have to be a hypocrite and make happy faces infront of your friends.But when your alone,you can let your emotions out.Poor 20 year old guy.I told him to move on.But he just want to wait and let see what time will do.

I realised.This is life.You just have to move on when the person just cant accept you.Leaving all the things that will make you remember the person.You just got to go.This isnt Hollywood,where scripts are made and kisses are fake.Where hypocrites are just too white to be seen and dramas wont work out.

Now,Im holding to what I had now.I know I can be alone sometimes.Feeling sorry for myself.Uncertain where I could lead myself.But I knew,Im doing these for the sake of one person and the people out there.I dont want myself to be called problematic.And I know,I am.You dont have to echo it out.Im hiding in the corner of my room where I knew I can go out and have fun with the schoolmates.Lighting a ciggarrette when one have finished.All for the sake of friends.Im going far.Far than where I suppose to.

Guess I will end it with a lyric.

A lyric That Wont be Reached(done by aPenster)

Maybe what I have done is a bit too drastic,
But it something I had to kill my pain,
Hating for all I know,memories seem to rust,
I want these to be a dream,but you wont let me,

How could I hold on someone that wished to run away,
That wished that she could have her way,
Pardon me,if Im wrong,but this is what I think,
Maybe its just sorrow that keep us human being,

Where songs are nicer in the middle parts,
And it slowly fades away on the endings,
But why does the openings always last,
And where the happy moments are still pending,

Dreaming of things that I always wanted to be,
Where skies and clouds can be reached,
Its just a jump away isnt it?
And Im just a call away wasnt it?

Now Im closing my ears and shouting my lungs out,
Screaming and blaming no one but myself,
Waiting for a smallest miracle liked a leaf to sprout,
From a seed that is planted on the road,

Regretments,I will be hoping to see you smile,
Let alone the smile will be sincere,Death is part of our life,
But I wont let it be tonight,because I got this to prove to you,
Forgiveness I seek,for all the things I put you through,

Maybe Im already too late for all I know,
This lyric wont be reached,kept locked far away,
Its just that I follow too much of my ego,
But its too late cause we are seperated on our ways,

Now Im close to my ending but your just at the beginning,
To try new things out but Im limited to everything,
The story of teenange drama,I will try not to put a ring,
To it,because I know you are sick and tired of it already,

Maybe you just dont need anyone liked me for now,
A painter that paints nothing but black out of your face,
On the piece of paper,keep on asking on how,
To draw your beautiful face without making a single mistake,

The string on my guitars,broke,trying hard to compose a song,
A song where every couple would listen and sing along,
About a naive girl who facing a complicated guy,
To run away without even letting him to ask why,

But Ill let things go and let it be,
Maybe,this is the way you wanted to see,
But Ill tell you that I hate things to be this way,
Where Im alone and no one listen to what I say....

P.s.Maybe...Maybe its ok to miss someone you hate.....:(

7:05 AM