This reality folks.aPen gets bored easily.He needs to get out of the house now!

Yeah.And i just fought with a friend.

And Im really sorry,aPit.Yes,accept my absolution.Maybe,I know how it feels sometimes.Maybe you're just not too sensitive.You are just tired and liked your nick said in Msn,in your sorry mind.

Hey,I knew what its liked.Being alone and single for more than 1 year.

Losing somebody special.Somebody you thought you could hold on forever.But when one day that person is finally gone from you,letting your hands go and unfinished chapters.You will think about the promising words they said to you.The words of love.Words of comfort.Words of making you think that they wont change your mind about you.But eventually,they did.People change and we cant change that.

All alone and dark.A painful lesson learnt.Life have to move on they say.And you did but being a complete different person if you are too late to reach somebody helping hand or nobody helped you or even worse,you listened too much of egos.For some,they end their life just liked that.9 months and instant death is completely different.You may gone but the pain stayed.Spreading to the love ones.

Afraid that you might lose somebody again.You hold on to what you have now.Scared that the person you just knew might leave you eventually.Smiling and laughing infront of your friends or somebody you knew but you know,and you hate to face it when the time you had to say goodbye for the day and went home alone.

Anger sets in for you.Hating everything you know.Punching the walls till your knuckles crack.You just wont know what could happen to you.

Jealous and wished that you could be liked them when you see a couple happily together.You know and you know that they would too fight with each other.But they know how to make it up but why cant yours be when you took the chance on the relationship?

Yeah,aPit.I know how it feels and Im explaining it all here.

Going back work.See ur parents fighting.Screaming and shouting.Then they blamed everything on you.Holidays without a call from friends.I know what its liked.

We shared thoughts together remember bro?And you were there to see or hear me cry through the telephone and in front of you when I broke up with my ex?I will cherish the times you helped me forever.We called ourselves losers remember?Because we are but we proved to others that we arent.

And affa,if you're reading this.Im sorry ok.You can ignore me or hate me all you want to.We can not be friends and dont talk in school if only I passed my N levels...But Im sorry for the sins I done..

Till here then..Bye bye.

p.s.And I promised it will be over soon.


Updated at 645 am.

Geez.I havent slept since just now because I had to wake my bro up just now.Poor him.Going home so late and had to go to work early.Nevermind.Im used to not sleeping or lack of sleep.

As usual,I watched Dvd to waste the night life.Cake didnt answer the phone from afternoon.Its so frustrating.Tido mampus agaknye.And Mark just reached home and tired.Man...

Mark called Me and Cake,PenCake.Its actually combining aPen and Cake.So you will get PanCake in pronouncation.How "Cute"~*Its liked walking with Cake and one of Mark's friends saw us and instead of calling us individually or whistle,they called us Pancake!Pancake!Blueargh~!I swear I will run away if I see people shouting PanCake PanCake!

Mornings.Feel liked going to school.I just had my bath.So refreshed.Now Im wearing my school uniform.Ahaks!Just kidding.

So,Im going to have a new job soon.Hotel,LJS and Security Officer.Yeah.Get it?Security Officer for this house!I sleep during the day and wakes up during the night.Sometimes I didnt sleep at all!Im sure Mom wont complained if I explain her throughly.She should be proud to have a son to keep watch over the house when Daddy is at work.Hah!

Proud ke hape!Anak pemalas.Tak keja,kluar jek buang duit.Beli Rokok!Kasi Mak duit tak nak!Dah lah kadang2 tak balik!Balik pagi.Tak pagi pun balik bila da tak de bas!

Ok ok ok.The song in my blog is for me ok.Ok?And I hate to hear naggings.Huahahahaa.And somemore,I have friends all over Woodlands,Marsiling and Admiralty.So what to do.I want freedom!A place liked a sunny field to jump around!Ahaks!

Kk bro da bangun.Hrmm..

Quick quick.Plan.Before he goes out.hrmm..

AR!Asked him to buy fags for me.Nyehehee.*Evil Grins*

So its usually 8-10 sticks per day now I lowered it to 3 sticks.(Theres somebody who oppose strongly to my smoking intake.)And I bet I will listen.Rite?

Yeah.Talked to Jana on the phone.Kelvin the Hotel Manager said I worked liked malu malu liked that.Wahlau.I bet he havent see me in LJS.Of course lar shy shy.Girls so many.Beauty beauty plak tu.Takkan nak kecoh..Nanti tak gentleman....

Wuahahhahaha!Fark man.No lar,I just dont know the people there well thats all.Other than that,Im cool.Chill..

Ok lar sampai sini jek lar!Good Mornings anyway.

p.s.You see it all in black and white.You never listen to anyone because your young.



2:34 AM