Rite.

Went to school with Mon and his friend who convinced that he was a punk since Primary 6.Liked I care only.Ahaks!

So today was just empty dullness.I was late for class and I didnt know where the heck or what class am I.So I went to the staff room and see Mr Yam.

Padan muka aku.Siapa tak suruh aku datang lecture talk semalam.So I didnt get the time table.

Rite.While waiting,I met a new friend.Nazri is it his name?He very friendly ar.He introduced his name to me and I introduced mine.I asked him to call me aPen.Ahaks.Betul pe.

He had to wait for his teacher because he too didnt come yesterday and didnt get the timetable.Then he got bad news that his teacher didnt come and he had to wait in the afternoon.Kecian.

So,Mr Yam ask me to follow him and Im the only person whos late.Eh,got 2 more chinese guys who are later than me.Yada yada yada,grandmother sick.I lied.Guilty liked hell.

Sat alone cause I dont know everyone there.Then got this one mat rips looked and me and I looked at him and smile.He smile back..

Talk cock talk cock early in the morning.Mr Yam talk cock sia.He very funny and lame.Ahaks.Its liked,not logical ar.But still its funny and lame.Then,tea break.I asked the mat rip to sit beside me.He very friendly and his name is Ipin.Then we late again to report back to class.Star Karat ar ni.

He introduced me to his friend,Achik.Somehow,his face looks very familiar.Eat and smoke and the canteen liked nobody business.

Rite.Class become more kecoh and I behave my usual self again.Make stupid jokes.People laughed.

Then we go off for early lunch break.So we had 1 hour and 30 minute to spare.Sat down and smoke at the canteen.Achik came and he asked me whether I am a skinhead last time.I said I was and he said he always see me lepak with the old tymers.Proud sia me.Ada nama lar gue kat luar.Ahaks!

Yeah,then I recalled.I seen him once too.Why got many ex skinhead go Bukit batok,I also dunno.Ahaks!Then see another ex skinhead walked past.He didnt notice me.Achik ate and then we smoke again.

1 hour 30 minute passed.

We went up and Daim and his friend said they are going to lepak before entering.And the teacher havent come.Ahaks.So we smoked at the toilet and the 2nd year peeps came in.They are friendly ar.The 2nd year.They never kacau people one.Yeah,while we are otw the toilet,the ex skinhead saw me and asked about my bro.Ahaks.Kecoh ar..I liked a freshman and I feel liked I knew everybody in the school.Or people know me.Heh.

After smoking,I bought my SW shirt and went up.The teacher still isnt there.And after a few moment,we got to know that she is absent.And we get to go home!Yay!

Called mon and he was in the train.LAr.Saw Khairie at the bus stop and we said goodbye.Then me,Daim and Ipin went to the MRT station together.I parted from them because I took the bus home.Fell asleep in the bus.

Woke up at interchange.Saw Saifullah went back from school and we smoked.

Took 913 home and sat beside this chinese SECONDARY school guy.His leg was far apart liked his father bus liked that.So I just tapped my shoes and he move slightly.Still,I dont have space.So I dont give any chance by sitting at empty sits and remain where I was.Carik hal lar ni.Then he wanted to alight.So I just gave the smallest space and he struggling to get out.Ahaks!PADAN MUKA BABI!NAK PAI KIA PE!

He stared at me outside and I stared at him lar.Takkan nak buat bodoh.Ahaks.Fuck lar these types of secondary school students.

Haiz.And here I am.REached home very early.Till here then.Yeah anyways,I feel very down nowadays though I dunno why.Maybe I fel theres something missing thats all.K lar..Gtg gang.Goodbye.

p.s.And I gave up finding you here...

The secret(aPen)

Hold me and take me up today,
And only to see me fall another day,
Praise me,tell me Im your everything,
Just to remind me that Im actually nothing,

This feelings are killing me,
And you are clearly making me see,
Thats there no light at the end of tunnel,
And you are just giving me empty hopes,empty hopes,

I will sit and watched you dance,
And people will look down on me as if its fun,
But I dont mind anymore,cause I told you I gave up,
And it feels so hurt and guilty to see myself laugh,

Take me out only to let people know you're nice,
Abused me,tortured me when nobodys there,
Brainwashed me,keep reminding that everything is alright,
Then,put me alone in the middle of nowhere,

And I know that this wont reach your eyes,nor your ears,
Cause it have been kept a secret,
Bottled up feelings,keeping things to self,its not so hard anymore,
When people surrounding me started to ignore,

Let me run,only to see me tripped on the shoelaces you tied together,
Promising me bad things that this will go on forever,
I dont mind anymore,cause you told me that I have no one,
And theres no comfort even in warmth light rays of the sun,

Blood and water,they are the same,
Everything you put me here is nothing but pain,
But nothing else matters anymore,
When people and things around you started to ignore....to ignore...

So hold me and take me up again today,
And everything will repeat all over again,
Praise me,tell me Im your everything,
Just to remind me that Im actually nothing...

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