Yea...

And its just Abang and The Gangs for ITE class M.A combination of malays from M1 and M2.Why abang?Because I just found out hes 25 years old!Yay!

So we were late for class because the teachers is late and we ate at the canteen for a while.It was liked 1 hour then we went up to class.Mr Yam already started teaching and we were like slacking.Except that I jotted down few important notes.

Then break before going to Holy class.Holy is a teacher name anyways.Its just about talking and talking for the orientation.Bored.

Went to break.Smoke and smoke..Anyways,I learnt to smoke pipe already.Khai tought me.How thoughtful of him.Vanilla Flavour.Yum yum.

SW.Didnt have any lessons today because Srama didnt come.So we played street soccer with other classes and won.Zul is the top scorer.Tak sangka dia decent tu macam bley main best.Heh.

Then we had CMS with Sim i think the name.She is funny.Khai and me listened mp3 at the back.Hes cool.Yeah.Mat metal liked me.At least most of my friends at ITE are Mat Metal!\m/....Rock on they say...

Went back and slept at bus.Only to woke up at the interchange.Nobody woke me up.Macam babi.Luckily I woke up suddenly.

Bored at home and lepak with Danny,Remy and Fadzrul.They are still cool as usual.I wanted to them to teach me Chemistry.Yeah.They are in sec 5..While Im in the....ITE...

Yea.Sorry if the entry is boring.I guess Im not in the mood for anything.

Tommorow work from 12 midnight to 9 am.Spring Cleaning.Just me,Thambi and Khidir.The 3 stooges...Why us must to shit work.Yunus called up and asked why i didnt come last sunday.I feel piss off.Im schooling lar..Haiz...

And did I say Im tired of working already?Yea..Im tired of work.And my life too.I just had this heartache that comes always in night.And...I dont liked this anymore.Not that I want to change but its part of me.And I had to give and take.

The least I want is somebody.Somebody to listen..Somebody to ask whats wrong with me.Somebody to know me.But I had to face reality.Maybe there aint somebody.Or I want all these to be a dream.And it will all vanished when I woke up..

I feel liked giving up on everything.And be a shadow of my own.Maybe Im right from last time.Give up this thing called love and just,focus on study.Study till I die..Only to have love when Im old.

And I wont have memories.Memories to remember how lovely is it to be a youth.Not to regret when I get old.I feel so sorry for myself.

And I see myself going down..and down..Weak on the knees.Feeling pathetic.Listening to the sad stories of people and encouraged them to have faith in life.Hiding my inner sorrows just to show im standing tall and strong....

So..I gave up and let myself in a self willow for a long time..

And it feels so stupid to cry..and so I wont cry but I shall keep....

It isnt easy to feel alone,
Or it is to fall in love,
To engulf yourself in self-willow,
Each smiles are just to hide your sorrows,

It isnt easy to gave up,
Or it is to say goodbye,
To be a beautiful picture in an ugly art,
Where nobody looks,you will cry,

Yes,you will,to see yourself,unwilling,
To move on with life,when things are the same,
And you will feel akward when you are standing,
Tall,because you know,what lies beneath is just pain,

Nobody's there for you,nobody cares,
Everyone is so busy with their daily lifes,
And you shall stood watching alone there,
And then,you will see everybody saying goodbyes,

Theres not a chance,a chance to show,
That you are somebody,somebody for a living,
Enduring the pain as time moves,so slow,
These procedures,just keep repeating,

And you will blame everyone,but nobody listening,
Screams and shouts will become deaf to everyone's ears,
And you will take note of everything by writing,
Tears stained the page,shivering yourself in fear,

Nobody wants to die alone,
And so do I,
But I been living liked this for so long,
Would it still continue till the day I die?......

p.s.its just me and emoshits again...


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