 Saturday, August 12, 2006
And then,I asked myself.What am I.Who am I.What the fcuk am I thinking whenever I kept running and running from here to there in life.What do I want.What do I need. And then,I will get angry for no reason.But I never really did show it to people.I will just kept myself shut.I know it when you are making a fool out of me.I knew what are you going to say that is going to hurt me.SO PLEASE,dont think Im stupid.I know what I'm doing.And I know whether you are lying or not.Im not God and I know. Sometimes,I feel like punching people faces whenever Im angry.Or I just could sit at one corner and smoke.And why do people keep taking the things I want in life.It sucks.It could be your friend,your family or even God. I'm sad.I dont even know whether theres people out there who will be there for me.I know in life you have to be independent but what if the burden is too heavy to carry for a person.Dont they need help? I think Im going crazy soon.I kept staring into space and think.And then it made my mind blur and whenever someone ask me a question,I would just shrug because I could not make out the question. People,they toppled me out so easily.A victim for everyone.I know this is not right but its true.I am indeed the victim for everyone.Yay~!Thank you very much. p.s.You know I wont say sorry.The pain has a bad reaction. I felt the cold pain struck my heart again, Would it really matter because I felt this a lot of times, The thoughts of leaving and running away from all these pain, I screamed but it will be left unheard, Have you ever felt so transparent? Where the ones you loved will pass you by without saying hellos, I swear by the time you are done I won't be here anymore, I will just feed myself with the lies you told me last time, I will just close my mouth this time, You will have to figure out what am I thinking,if you still care, Would you take a walk to the familiar places to remember? If you should have the time, I might have said this a dozen times in a day, I gave up,I gave up,I gave up, I might have said this a dozen times in a day, I gave up,I gave up,I gave up... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |