Updated at 1952hrs.

Yea!i woke up from my slumber.the medicine for stomach flu is kinda drowsy and it knocks the daylight of me.i slept through the afternoon and i feel very sleepy right now.hahaa.but too much of sleep isnt good since im scared that i cant get to sleep later at night.my supervisor smsed me that i have some project work to do from friday to thursday.i feel all excited about it but yet at the same time,nervous since most of the attachment students said what applied on work got nothing to do what we learnt at school.hahaha.

im currently waiting for mr shahrail to pick his new template so that i can refurnish his blog thoroughly just liked extreme makover.wuahaua.

and i had a weird dream just now.i dreamt that i was running away from this shop auntie because i stole a packet of tidbits.then i ran all the way and i remembering i saw 2 of my ex secondary classmate when im buying water.its very weird.ahahah..i made my mind on what to buy when i received my pay.im planning to pay off my debts with dad and buy...


a new vans shoe
a hat
a new black pants

hrmm,then im going to save the money and prolly enrol license for motor because bro agreed to put me as 2nd rider for his limited edition black Spark.yea yea!


anyone wants to accompany me go shopping or got good shop directory that sell things cheap but still orginal..HAHAHA..


your words made up of broken glass,
tears away my skin when you speak,
everyone knows we're history,
but i cant promise myself to let go,


it was meant to be an experiment,
but i gone too far,too much plans done,
and i woke up with an aching heart,
im sure you are not listening to my protest,


i still see your reflections in my mirror,
standing there,obeying to my insults,
i never meant to be this way but we formed the hate in us,
and we are the cause of the seperation,


we are falling,let alone the light of hope,
but i still wait,even if it doesnt make any sense,
your memories still dwell in you,
your memories still dwell in you..


-end-


Hello!im feeling quite okay after eating my medicine already!

i went to my old family doctor which is at woodland north plaza.dad suggested since the last time i saw Doctor Ho was when i went to Mt Ophir back then in Sec 3.nyehaha.


Doctor Ho is a legend.A superman who doesnt need the ability to fly or the fear of kryptonite.he always tried his best and his medicine and consultation always work well.... :)..he checked my weight,my blood pressure and my breathing.he said i have stomach flu which was caused by the flu and cough.


and i did took up the chance and asked him,does stress or thinking too much causes sickness?
then he asked me whether my working place is stressful?so i lied and said yes.hahaha.well,actually,its kinda stress too.he said to me that,stress can cause flu,fever and cough which is what im having now.and you have to think twice about what i do and what i dont liked.he said,i should really go for poly before NS or after NS which indeed i've been planning to do.


so after taking my medicine at the receiption,i took a phamplet about Chronic Obstructive Pulmonart Disease


What is COPD?


Chronic=Persistent
Obstructive=Blocked
Pulmonary=Affecting the lungs
Disease=Sickness.


COPD is currently the seventh leading cause of death in Singapore.About 2,000 hospitalisations a year are due to COPD and the numbers are steadily rising.


Causes?
Smoking is the main culprit in the most causes.Smoking damages the lining of the airways of the lungs which become inflamed and damaged.


Syptoms
Cough-This is usually the first symptom to develop.It is usually a wet cough with phelgm (sputum) in the early stages, this cough is intermittent (on and off). As the condition worsens, the cough becomes more persisiten. It is commonly referred to as a Smoker Cough.


How is COPD managed?
Quitting Smoking-If you smoke,quitting is the single most important step you can take.


:(

Jeez.is it that bad?im sure im trying to quit smoking but sometimes theres always a cause to start it all over again.maybe i try to reduce to 3 or 1 per sticks a day.


I dont want to die early.I want to marry my childhood crush and have kids.I want to be the coolest father a kid could have.I want to introduce him guitars and music.And i want to show him the box with photos of gigs and friends and what i did back then when i was young.Then,i will tell him all the good points about my friends.it would be cool isnt it?to spend quality time on the living room with your kids.hahaa...oh well...hrm hrm...


yesterday,i thought about the times when i was young.I have 3 siblings including myself.

Last time,i forced dad to sleep with me because im scared of dark and all the fairtytale ghost.whenever he delayed because of watching movie on Channel 5,i would get up and throw tantrums or just sit on one corner of the house waiting for him.


then all of it stopped because dad have to attach to India when im Primary 6.the first time i sent him to the airport,i cried so badly that im afraid i would never see dad again.


and i swear i began to see everybody in the family is falling apart.bit by bit,the changes of the family could be seen as big brother begin to get more secretive and i went to my other side of my ways and become parts of the skinhead back then.eventually,the bonding of brotherhood began to change liked diamonds polished and brushed to find the value in it.


and yea,me and brother were in the skinhead scene for the 3 years.mom cried to dad,talking to him on the phone saying how bad i was back here.and dad return to Singapore giving us a stern lecture.i rebelled and said to him that he is better off in India than here.we moved house because he dont want me to get affected by the neighbourhood kids around my block since most of them are bad influence.


so,things were still the same.me and bro left the scene,he get back to his secretive ways and i was lost for a moment.hanging on air.and yea,like expected me and brother became strangers of the house and it get worsen when one day,he beat me up for nothing.i have a clot on my head which is big that can be seen if i gelled my hair when going to school.


till now,i wished i have a brother who have the same interest as me and i regret the day when i punched dad on the chest as he was beating me.i fear i was never good enough for him and thats why he keeps pestering me to study hard and reminding me the advices that were said to me ever since i was a kid.


now i realised the importance of family bondin and i began to realise its too late now as the individuals here are falling apart from each other.its only tragedy that will bring us together but everything will set us apart.


p.s. and dad,i wished that you never went for the stupid attachment in india.i rather suffer in silence than seeing my underserving love ones bleed with the moment.



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