 Monday, June 18, 2007
hey.i deleted myspace again. i have to admit.i cant stand ignorance or total silence from the people i liked or love.but dont get me wrong.im the type of person who lacks in self confidence.i try to be somebody,to an extend where people will see me as somebody happy..but i do have problems.i do have and so does everybody.but sometimes we feel so far,lonely and so underserving... now i know how those people who are rejected feels.now i know how people who are handicapped and those people who was hoping but was let down feel. why would god made some people more superior than others. did god owe them something before life? so many question in my mind yet so many left unanswered.i gave up. we have egos and thats why i tend to stay away or run away because i fear of affecting other people.i dont want to them to feel hurt or hate me for what i dont want to become.its liked what i told my friend,its like heroin,but i inject silent treatment in my life. sometimes when we feel so hopeless and down,we dont care what others are saying even if its feel like adding salt to the wounds.because i found out,whenever my problems engulfed me in it,i feel so alone and my emotions and cigarrettes become my best friend. i need time.i wanna run away. my hopes are fading.im living on baits. theres no answer to this question anymore.everything and everybody is there but where the fcuk am i? :( |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |