 Saturday, January 26, 2008
dearest abang jo, i know it would all be too late if i would typed it down and express everything.by then,you would be far away.far away from me and the workplace. thanks for all the encouragement you gave back then we first knew.we were strangers but as time goes on, i treat you more liked a friend. a father, perhaps. you woke me up from all the childish dreams. you told me how reality supposed to be. how to work things the right way instead of making mistakes and mistakes. i appreciated for everything you have done for me. i know. and i know, i let you down before you went to Qatar. you told me that you are ashamed of me. i felt ashamed too. i am sorry. i know words wont meant a single thing to you now that people pinpointed lies about me and i kept going work late. now, i have lost you. i have lost my motivator, a person who helped me whenever i am in deep shit. honestly, theres no other person that i can compared to you. you are humble, yet funny. and thats the reason why, i feel so energatic whenever you're around at work. you kept on calling me stupid or clumsy but its okay. i know where i stand. but i know, you just want to make things right. not for yourself, but for me. for me. now that you are far away, how miserable my life at work, it seems. but you told me to just continue working. i understand. i wont be long anyways down there. by the time you came back, im gone. probably in camp or other jobs. with that, all i wanted to do now is to repay back your kindness, maybe not now, but later as i grow old. then i will talk about us yeah. i promise you this abang jo. i promise you, i will never..fail. you told me to keep questioning about the things in life. never to be afraid to speak up. never steal, never sabotage. even if i would face the greatest downfall in my life, i swear to you, i wont cry or plead, but my heart will move on. i will use my downfall as my mistake, my weakness i havent learn. im going to learn everytime you do. updated at 1125am dearest abang jo, there is this one thing,i forget to ask whenever you're around. that is, how do we treat with the unfairness of the world? have we done enough to make the others forget about hurting us? its okay.i know these wont reached you..but im just telling.. |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |