i am, feeling older than i am,
feeling desperate to make another,
successful conversation just to wake up,
feeling happy and alright,


am i, asking too much, being unreasonable?
always there to find the fault,
that could make you unhappy and cry?
am i, trying hard to be a perfect human?


is my, brain seems not to functioning?
unable to bring back to my senses?
wake me up, to tell me, i am unhappy,
i am left behind, i am being let down, let down?


i got, so many things in my heart,
so i will, typed it all from where it started,
i got to tell you something, something,
to wake you up till dawn,


silence... silence... silence..


can you, hear his complaints,
when you're asleep soundly..
can you, hear his breathing,
as he, breathes in the nicotine,


silence... silence... silence...


this cigarrette is burning my heart,
blackening my lungs, as i wake up,
with a cough and a desperate attempt,
to get up and get ready to work,


silence... silence... silence...


when you're, sleeping so soundly,
somewhere out there, a heart is worried,
as the time stood still,
as his brain searched for ideas to entertain,


silence....


the sea is all i had to make me feel,
so comfortable,
this loneliness is making me feel,
that i am home again,


silence.. silence.. silence..


let the goverment, take me far from,
my homeland and my loved ones,
i won't hesistate to join the rat race,
cause i dont want to be, a nobody, a nobody,


this is, my final desperate attempt,
my final desperate attempt to make me,
feel whole and happy again, to get another,
cigarrette box without anyone knowing,


silence... silence...


when you're asleep, can you feel,
his loneliness, as he, pushes the blame,
to himself and the people who pulled you away,
far away... far away.. from him?


when you're asleep, the desperate seems to be,
running in his brain, as he tries to make,
a 10-7 am conversation during the holidays,
when all else fails, would you still be asleep?


silence.. silence.. silence..


my heart, they don't heal easily,
as i moved on with my life,
i feel, so much older than i am,
maybe i am, feeling the abandoned,


living liked an oldman with no children,
to take care of me, as i withered and died,
not from my age,
but from the cancer and the problems in my life,


silence... silence..


don't you worry of being blamed,
whenever you sleep, safe and sound,
cause he's the one who sacrificed,
most of his life just to, make you secure,


silence... silence...


i am feeling bitter,
let me just face the ocean,
with winds that could talk,
without stopping and feeling tired.


silence... silence..

1:05 AM