 Tuesday, January 01, 2008
would a man looked back at his mistakes and kneel down and said all the words of regrets and just move on. would a man sit under the tree and pretend that he doesnt or didnt know anything for the fear of he is not strong enough to carry the burden. would a man said all the promising words and yet, break it all just because of constant mistakes? would a man asked god in anger, why isnt there any care and love for him anymore... im deleting my friendster soon.im running away again..god.this time maybe to a better place.i will leave a space for myself.a space where i can think properly again.a space where all my emotions are thrown in. i realised since last time, internet is a big mistake.they destroyed and took everything i once had..theres nothing for me there anymore.nothing but anger,hate,envy and unhappiness. i tried to clear my thoughts.tried to find anything to hold on for the moment.but i just cant.sometimes, all i see, is you better off without me.may be not.maybe yes,.. sometimes,am i asking too much.why did i fall.i need to crak my mind open.i need to see more that whats life have given me.i need to find an answer.an answer to all my downfall.... if only some people understand.but i guess no...its okay...im learning how to live without any motivation..without any depression. but hey,this is not the end rite...its just some passing thoughts or maybe something that has happened. goodbye 2007.. hello 2008..in which i believe is the most worst year i ever had in my life... my life.. is stained...im restless for the silence in the air. p.s.have mercy for those who hold on... |
myself 
who am i? turning 20cents this year.(18 at heart). wandering around a small city called singapore is the most favourable pastime we all liked to do. sure you can complain but nothing beats the safety and security here. a city so small that somewhat, each of us is connected. such as your bapok used to be my bestfriend and the shotgun marriage girl next to your door used to be the brightest student in class. so yeah. i love it here. XD so yerp. serving my ns right now. basically im wasting time and using up the money they gave me. nodding my head in agreement to what they say and to look at em with the brightest eyes i could give. cant wait to go back to school and see all the little boys and bitches act like as if they know everything. 02 december 2010. world cup and ORDoooo!!! lol. thats as much as i could fill you in. anyways, does anyone knows how to permanently remove a moustache? mom says its a man thing but i think people with moustache are the most evil person on earth cept for dad. and oh lastly, i love my friends as much as they love me eventho i dont know how the fuck people calculate love. what measurement unit is it suppose to be? kilovegrams? and oh wait! when a friend came up to you and say, "Relax, theres many fishes in the sea." Do remember to give a middle finger and say this, "fishes? theres more bitches in there eating up all the fishes now." look around dear friend, sex is important to us now, that some of the youth considered it as a 2nd Language. :D |