IM SORRY.


to hit you just now..


i promised.


never to do it again.its just not me.. :(


updated at 0240am.


i dont feel alone.i dont feel bored.


after i hit u hard just now. i went back home. and i asked ahmad for humairah number. he gave it to me after so many questions.i feel kinda sad.i dunno who could understand.i want to hear a voice. a voice that always giggle.


so i called her up.as usual, she was laughing on the phone for no reasons.and she called me back cause shes worried about my outgoing.


i told her what i did.and she went a bit numb and shocked.but i told her, i was angry.too angry to think. and we talked to catch up about the good times.


its not that i liked her like i did last time.i dont.i dont even had feelings for her.i just need somebody to change my point of view.


after we put down the phone.i feel so, so much of a changed person.i feel all the hate for you lift off.and everything seems so reasonable.


now, i just made an account at fishingkaki.i just found a friend whom i dont even know what the face looks liked.hes selling a brand new abu garcia CS rocket beach casting reel for 130.kinda cheap and very nice.


and hes helping me out in trying surfcasting.


and thats all.goodbye lonely nights.



have we been trying too hard?
to see what lies ahead of us?
the sound of birds awaits in the morning,
a voluntary,somebody help us please,


the bells never stopped ringing,
so is the sky, they never stop passing,
heres the letter, the letter we've been waiting,
the letter that will change us all,


but we burned it, burned it to ashes,
we paste our eyes with pictures that lies,
so we couldnt engage into another fight,
a conversation, a conversation that kill us all,


and the gods looked at us with a shaking head,
its not too late to say goodbye,
as he pulls me away into the sea,
im drowning, im drowning and let it be,


ive already said im sorry.
ive already said im sorry.

11:20 PM