strapped on an explosive detonator,
i wished i could feel much stronger,
but all i ever face was attempted failures,
wandering aimlessly, why is it so difficult?

these memories still bleak my mind,
how i wish something could take me alive,
how i wish i could grow much stronger,
theres a family sickness and now im futureless,

and everyone disagrees when it comes to me,
and everybody loves to pick me out,
have i ever told you this, nobody ever wonder?
i told lies but i never stab anyone behind their backs,

and they would throw me out,
and they would tell my mistakes,
and everything would be done in public,
i wish i could struggle through it all,

but everyone wants a piece of what im going to get,
and i feel the hurt inside, but nobody ever wonders,
i guess i could never be, someone i dreamt to be,
i guess i could never be, what he wants me to be,

i never felt fear so much in my life, but its fatal,
to move on and just leave everything behind,
and sometimes, you just had everything,
but maybe, theres something left you unsatisfied,

and i had every good reasons to win this war,
but i guess it wouldnt much worth it,
have i ever told you this, nobody ever wonders?
now im back to square one, i dont feel liked an adult,

much more to a child being paid for slavery,
im not sure whether i deserve this, but its for me to keep,
i know its hard to understand but its for me to keep,
and how i wish something could take me alive,

its not that i never try,but nobody wonders,
all they had for me is just another dead end,
and this song is for me to sing and for me to keep,
i never feel, this kind of pain before,

and these moments of hurt keeps blinding my eyes...
and these moments of hurt keeps blinding my eyes...
but you keep gaining and i keep losing...
but you keep gaining and i keep losing....

10:05 AM