hi!my name is apenyu.apencil is history.so whatever you do, call me apenyu.because apenyu is apen+ayu=apenyu. and i want my gf name to go whenever apen go. so its officially apenyu!


btw, above the first paragraph, is my gf! i liked to call her cute manci. and i dont know why. its either kimci or manci. thats all. there are some other words in which i called her but cannot tell, because most of the readers are underage and i rather keep it as confidential!

how do we get together? its a big secret i shared between her and some other friends. but what i learnt in life is, even how much sometimes you hated the person before, sometimes, love bring people together!

i dont really care whether there are some people who hate my gf or talk about her or whatever, cause we dont really give a damn anyways but sometimes, please dont pretend. stay true to the heart and dont go around faking in front of me. cause i know. i know whats happening.

its kinda sad sometimes when cute manci talked to me about her problems. the time when she found out that its hard to fit in a group of girls. just because shes ugly and abit boyish.

well, this is life sometimes. people stereotyped each other. they thought they are all goody goody but the fact that we are all the same. eventually one will learn the lessons of life and its a matter of time they catch up with you.

nobody is perfect in the world.insulting or stereotyping will eventually destroy an individual charisma.and the person will eventually felt left out. and the end result is hate.

i've been there before.no friends till sec 3 just because im different. i've been there and i know how it feels.so for the people who know how it feels, dont apply it to others.. YOU should know how it feels.

forgive and learn to forget. even it takes time before we adapt to the life lessons.


i talked to a collegue at my workplace. he told me, i know you cant do service because you get angry very easily. simple as that. he can tell by the looks and the way i talk. he told me, try to control your temper sometimes cause you will learn to let things go easily. its quite true you know. i tried that once or twice and it really works.


no arguements.
less complicated.
the end.


Abang Jo, a man i look forward to last time, told me.

"you dont have to be ashamed to say sorry.its not as if you are going to lose your pride and dignity"


my conclusion is. sorry=make things easier.


heh, btw the reason why i really liked cute manci is because sometimes, whenever i pinch, kick or punch her, she still loves me like she did yesterday.


even how sometimes i lose my temper for unreasonable things, she will still be there by my side. how sometimes i left her behind, she will keep on following..

i realised, im not that a good boyfriend even though i can be a good friend, and even how stupid i called her, shes the greatest person i ever met in my history.

nobody ever had the,

patience
loyalty
smile
good/rough sense of humour
good listening ear
etc..
etc...


theres so many words in which, i cant describe about cute manci. because in whatever i do, she will be there supporting me, asking me to keep going and not just stand there, losing my temper.


in return, i tried to change my attitude(in which sometimes i failed terribly) and treat her more to a girl, in that way, she will feel more womanish about herself..

its more than what i can asked for. more than what the world can offer to me. the gift sent from god to put right below my very own lovely mother.

to put it much more simpler. shes liked a glue that puts everything back together.

and i hope. even though its too early to say. this going to be 9 month relationship, is going to be the best adventure in both of our lifes.. :)))

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