after a very hectic work yesterday, in which i had to stand 6 hours straight, then rest for another 6 hours, then 1 hour patrolling and setting up the inpro center, i walked around causeway point in search a perfect birthday present for my beloved mom.

eventhou my feet aches liked hell, i just continue walking here and there with alot of thougts in my head. i went metro first to find a Corelle set of 12 plates that cost 89 bucks. i told my bro about whether he wanted to share money or not but he said, to buy that next month on mom's birthday. so i walked around again. i even walked in a Aussoni or sumthing that sells bedsheets. very nice and girly atmosphere so felt abit paisey and went out only to find secondary school girls giggling at me. what a bunch of fuckers. then i browsed mp3s at the Stereo shop and something told me to look up and i saw shahrul and erin waving at me! LOLOL.

went up and have a smoke with them before searching for the perfect gift for mom. i went inside W collection, a shop that sells wooden lamps something2 liked japanese stuffs uh. then i saw a lamp and it reminded me of the lamp that is spoilt in the living room. without thinking much, i bought it for $49 dollars.

while wrapping the aunty asked me, how old i am cause i looked very young. yeah, young and empty, i thought to myself. then i asked her to make a guess and she said 20. so i was liked 20 young meh. lol and i said she was right. had some random conversations before i fuck off.

went to metro again and get a creative stone for myself. 52 dollars only so just buy lor. then go down royal sporting house and grab a lime green nike water bottle for gym purposes in camp. finally after an hour or so, i went home and ordered the pro labs pills. lolol. such a sweet treat. i was shocked that my pay is 638 plus instead of 500 plus. such good luck after a bad day yesterday.

so yeah, quite surprised mom went home early and since Sunday i might not be home, i gave her the present and she said thank you while smiling to herself. i heard she unwrapping the present in her room straight away after i closed my door. lol. went out to see her reaction and she was very pleased with and placed on the living room where the old lamp was.

after 2 years i wanted to give her something for mother's day, it is today i finally proved her that im not that of a bad son afterall :))


i never thought we were that miserable,
you said we should have waited a lil longer,
but isnt it too soon to say goodbye?
dont really get the message before you fell asleep,

please dont wait and make an excuse,
to finally have the strength and put me through,
and here i am, unsure of what to do next,
so i live through the moment and did my best,

surrounded by the constant fears that lived through,
my teenager life, i am indenial and paranoid,
now i am a little red dot in your life,
for its me that's been breaking my brain and knuckles,

it's such a shame, i let my guard down and was knocked down,
too weak to get up, i will stare at the blank ceiling again,
hoping for another you to give me a hand and pull me up,
history repeats, oh well, as long they let me know,

not to put too much trust in this so called love,
for it kills us on the inside while we are trying so hard,
to make it alive, cause at the end of the day,
it always been me that lived to tell my wounds....


p.s. It's never easy to understand why memories hold our hand but people let go...

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