Road to recovery.

so i made a decision to pack most of my stuffs at home and settle down in camp. this will be like BMT all over again but this time, i can book out during my off-days. theres lots of of reasons why i liked to stay in camp. the most important factor is the gym. i can go gym on evenings and take my time working out instead of rushing home in the afternoon. furthermore, i'm getting closer to my camp mates especially to team 2 people. people liked huzairi, faizal and especially fazil. loll! stupid boyanese boy. another important thing is, i can save a lot of money if i were to stay in cause in camp, the food is free!!! LOL! =DD

sure i might not be online that often but still, theres an internet computer i can still use in the guardroom but fuck the interneettt laa...fucking heartpain.

anyways, while i'm doing my duty in the morning, the 3rd division guys were jogging around the camp and they were singing together and they were singing my favourite song in BMT! lol. so it goes liked this.


i asked my girl, to take a walk,
to take a walk, down orchard road,
bypass mandarin, to centerpoint,
where we had lunch, at mcdonalds,

we shared a cup, of lemon lime,
we had fillet, and apple pie,
holding her hands, look into her eyes,
i asked my girl, to be my future wife!

LOLOL. its the best song ever. but to Gunawan, he thinks the song is quite sad. lol! he said it brought the memories he had when he was with his ex. -_-

okay till here then. i wanna sleep!


i sat down dwelling in the darkness of my room,
punching the walls to ease the pain and anger,
i've counted the days and nights thinking of,
how many hours you spent to plan your leave,

now i am nothing but a ghost in your eyes,
a monument you built and abandoned to corrode in time,
but every pieces that fell doesn't put me away,
for the fire in my heart will keep on burning in rage,

when the day you turned your back on me,
i choked on the truth but i stood up, in vow of revenge,
and i stopped the hours of time to rebuild myself,
a better and stronger foundation so i won't fail again,

it's disappointing to relinquish the moments spent,
and how the 19th April is put to waste,
all the promises are in the form of lying, to deceit,
the point of loyalty, clandestine from within the surface,

and i hoped what i wrote today for you will be perusal,
remember the seperation of today and 4 years back,
now the hiatus between us is nothing more than a graveyard,
so let it be end, we fell away so fast and reasons are few,
how does it feels now to be in another man's arms?

our differences are the same and difficulty is just yourself,
the phrase "inlovingmemoryof" is meaningless now to you,
since you let it slipped through carelessly, death is inevitable,
my friend, especially within the perimeter of your reach,

i closed this chapter of life and set my goals upfront,
since i played a smaller role now in your visual perceptions,
i will take my chance with no regrets at all and waited for,
the daybreak of tomorrow that forever never failed me.



12:44 PM